Analog Signal Caught in Digital World

I Like the 90s... Life had less options and more fun. 

I captured secrets in a dairy and won't spray them for the world to watch.

Spoke hours on the landline calls and even though difficult I was more connected to friends and family ! 

 Now wishing birthdays on WhatsApp group has become a tick box exercise.

 An invisible unknown peerpresure creeps in what if I have missed out ? At times I keep messages unread to keep unwanted folks at bay! 

I laugh less type more write less, worry more, care less. Man I use to love the 90s pockets we're halffilled and we had overflowing hearts with love. 

Now l get a very short lived instant gratification on my each conquest of a purchase I make online.

 I have gadgets gizmos to save time, still i am stressed for lack of it...Back in the days I was back home early and stress-free.. 

 I seem to be more happpy on pictures and selfies than I really am. 

I at times wonder all the time that tech has saved me is lost on making my profile better or uploading a story which never unfolded .

 I am caught an analog signal lost in Digital World !

Just Dance

Dance dance... Dance in the rain... That shall make you forget the pain... Dance till you last... Forgetting sins of the past... You make those moves... Which will tighten all the life screws... Forget and dance Forgive and dance... Dance so that there is no blemish of pain Nothing too lose and only to gain... No past no future... Just memoirs that make unicorns out of mortals Just dance !

I Wish we could get real

I remember simmering aroma of coffee use to fills my room,
The pleasant morning breeze use to sooth my soul,
My deep dive in morning daily Flipping the crisp pages of city,
Wondering what's gone wrong to our planet, But Now,
I just scroll, up and down,
Exploits of the midnight town,
Endless selfies and fake smiles,
Tweets retweets and those unlikely likes, Strolling scrolling and trolling celbs,
Filter less photos with hashtags, Virtual wishes and sad emoticons for mishaps, My life encapsulated in a 5 inch box, Emotions, joy outrage all exhibited with touch on my pad, I wish those days were conversations were real, No buzz, pings, and no share no dare, I wish things could be more real, The real big fear I have of a battery drain, Cutting of trees, dieing of whales is that pain ? I wish I could get more real, Flip flip I get a notification on my cart, 50% off the End of Season Sale, I pick myself and click few links, Wallah I have again bunch of things that I really don't need !, I wish to break free,i wish to break free, Ohh gosh do I miss the nineties, The excitement of scrambling to a movie hall, Now it's just fingertips booking the show at just one go, I miss those days when I picked up the receiver took efforts to dial a stranger, Now I just have a button to tap, Though convinent this is a lazy trap, I wish to get real I wish to get real

Unfinished Business

There he was reborn, ruthless, sharpe, Street smart ,opportunist, practical and a smart cookie baked in fire of bad experiences.
It were the bitter experience and slaps he had received from life made him what he was.

Ohh yes he was nice caring humble a bit timid and God fearing, but circumstances only had played a magic trick to transform him.

But there are no free lunches the bad experiences gave him valuable lessons and carved him into an indispensable force at a cost of eyes that had sank deep ,hair which once was lustrous black now had shades of grey spayed like depiction of aftermaths of rain by an ameture artist on canvas.

He stood tall but, circumstances had taken a toll on him,but what had not changed is the smile,he  could illuminated horizons and beyond with it.

I was about to meet  after half a decade and was  excited and nervous both, excited to meet old friend nervous because of his meteorical rise a professional.

He is now  anything but fun, but I have butterflies playing pogo in my tummy knowing the fact I shall be meeting the Mr. Mehta, Founder CEO of one of the fastest growing unicorn!

Dealing with Situations

Shit happens! Your sweet heart says he/she dosent love you anymore!and would like to seek legal separation. You lose that promotion to a teachers pet after slogging your ass off, you just broke up with your childhood sweetheart. You just lose a loved one in an untimely demise. The grief remains yours people can empathize may be sympathise but none help in healing Nobody but you have to grind your way out of the hole you find in. And it happens inch by inch. Sorry recovery ain't popping a pill ! Life at times can make you feel perplexed, the very constants in your life turn into volatile variables and you can suddenly find yourself stumped ! Truth is we as species have an inherent quality to be content with status quo and are resistant to change. We find bliss in stability. But truth is its the volatility has seeds of evolution deep embedded in it. Acceptance happens with a delay and a concept time heals everything is myth. No matter how much time showers loss of a memory ( context of a bad event) there are scars which pain more than freshly inflicted wounds. So moving on should be a knee jerk process or transient one is a million dollar question? I would say neither a right combination of time based healing and getting back to life hard and meeting people is very important. Travel is one act that can just refresh the rusty combust mind, we can think on abundance and capabilities. Another thing can help heals is to get zeal of a kid, now that can be done by indulging in small acts of foolishness (for adults) which kids find perfectly OK. Going back to school to acquire new skills can really make you believe in your capabilities and give you a new direction. Nothing like self belief it can do wonders in healing and bouncing back at life. But all these remedies revolve around one strong core quintessential principal " Loving yourself!" Sculpt yourself ! Build yourself ! Create memoirs ! Write a story and be the King Leonidas of your life !

Better half and not Bitter half

Life can be strange it can show you colours that you never knew. Always surprises you more captivating and exhilarating than a fiction. We all have shades of grey in varying proportions, they are deep routed within us often invoked by situations and people. It's funny what people can get out of you. If you read any acceptance speech there are always accolades to spouse thanking him/her to motivate and reach the last mile. History is also testimony to the fact the biggest and most destructive battles were fought won and loss because of provocation of better halves. It rests a lot in spouses hand to make or break empires. A right positive enforcement can propel an individual and make him/her scale unimaginable heights. If it were so easy why relationships come with its own set of friction? A simple answer to it would be the grease of affection coming from mutual admiration and respect. Mushy love and romance evaporates and may not survive the test of time, what left behind is trust and mutual admiration. Being in each other's worst time makes you celebrate during each other's best. Easier said than done all you need is that great catalyst patience and belief not only in your abilities but your abilities together. Couple often tend to argue and spend the energy fighting on irrelevant and non important faucets of life. One thing one must never forget we have finite time to capture infinite memoirs which life has to throw why waste time to get back at or to even draw first blood. An eye for eye would leave the world blind is what once Gandhi said, it has a deeper figurative meaning to it. If a mind us channelised in a right direction with positive enforcement it can work wonders. Cribbing bickering or highlighting and celebrating negative aspects about a partner shall never take you to the 1 St base ever. Just like kids adults also understand language of love an affection. If a point which you don't appreciate is made to explain with a calm mind than losing it will have far more productive results than drilling it and punishing your partner like an offender.

Life throws curveballs

At times life throws curve balls just like Lee's bouncers you have to be Sharpe to duck under it... At times you also gotta exhibit some pre emptive footwork to hook it for Six !

Black Magic Woman

There she was sitting on back seat of my car, Dressed in pristine white glittering though moon light, 

She is my black magic woman, She looks at me with her big black eyes and curls dangling on her shoulders. 

Ohh Yeah she is my black magic woman ! She with her sumptuous smile brightens my life, The sparkling radiance of her eyes makes me skip my heart beat Ohh she is my black magic

 Woman!

 It was Navy Ball and she wore captains cap with a slight tilt, My heart raced again, irresistible she was, a cult combination of innocence and mischief in right proportion, She gazed and laughed at me with her back big eyes Ohh she was my black magic woman, 

I step out of car and the clock rings 9, Off she goes my black magic Woman !

Divine

Chants ringing in my ears,

Humming , hissing feels a holy bliss, Divine is deep within.

We need to step out of our mundane life to breath free,

Holy men, vedic chants, I dont know the powers of Divine !!

Belief has powers to transform a rock into divine source of power !

Marraige your choice why should strangers Rejoice !

Marriage in India is a topic of public interest after cricket and Arnab's show, the most juiciest piece would be getting somebody married.

Trust me immediate family is not so desperate to push prospective bride or groom but some extra social elements like Cousin-Dadi , Bickering Chachi, Clingy Mausi, Bitchy Mami.

Ageing of whiskey and bride /Groom are complete antithesis in true sense.

If I have to draw a parallel it follows an exact pattern of Time decay of an option.  You are dead if you dont unwind your position before expiry.

  You face inevitable death if you dont marry within prescribed age limit.

And when you chuck yourself and redeem of this noise...your best buddy pokes nose.."no dude I mean seriously think of settling down..."

Settling Down ! I am sorry marriage can on contrary be unsettling experience for few.

Well I can't say getting married is like consuming the holy water or one step towards divine invincibility.

But I believe it should be a non event for crowd to create noise...

It a choice of two individual people ...which is celebrated by the world except the partied involved in the act.

I am not against marriage but against the undue importance the world gives to it...

PS:- The context is inspired from a dialogue between friend planning to tie the knot. Also inspired from movie pyar ka punch nama.

Crony capitalist corporate world

I hate to play the games which people cherish to play, 

Call me a submissive straight jacket bastard, 

Where free men cant walk without being deceptive and dishonest ! 

Always play the oneupmanship battle, 

Without focusing on the larger good ! Fighting for piece of bread just Stealing from a hungry kid for conquest ! Crushing millions of heads for that illusive throne.. This is a place where humanity was abolished long back Whats left are zombies who just churn dollars for the lord. Crony capitalism at its best I need a redemption I need a redemption..

Random Particle

An insatiable urge runs through my body,
A desperate state to break free,
Freedom is achieved,
Still feel captivated in an invisible skeleton of tasks,
Confined by realms of rules!
Unwritten not scripted but followed to the T.
Direction less random particle just can traverse only in its field
Unlike a particle that can randomly travel galaxies,
What is the purpose ? Why was it created?
Are few questions....and the biggest one of them all..!
Can it create a dent in the universe ?

Tom & Jerry- Alter Egos

Its funny how our alter ego can be, you will be surprised to see a complete antithesis of you, the you that you never dreamt to be in your worst nightmares.

Its like two pop ups of devil and angle that use to appear above Tom's head in the famous classic toon Tom& Jerry. We all have darker shades.  Its when hues and Grey's collide they give rise to inexplicably shades.

Let's call the devilish part of our personality as Tom( for simplicity sake), who can be ruthless mean nasty, vengeful, sadist, and all the adjectives one can think that have a negative connotations.

And Jerry would be the nice guy, innocence personified, a victim ,just looking out for his price of cheese and shelter in the world.

We have both the characters within us, one super-cedes other, but intent fully its Jerry who tries to pop out first.

And then we also have have Toms deep within us rising to occasion popping their head out, just bursting to unleash the fury.

Have we ever analysed why our bad side can be so nasty ? So dark...?

Its our Jerry side ( The good guy public image) fuels the intense Tom deep within us. Jerry as a character  is very mischievous has fun almost pulls a trick on Tom, but always covers himself up with veil of innocence.

The suppression of Tom at all points of time makes him more Nastier. So its important to let go your emotions .Be yourself and dont worry of protecting a public image and creating right perceptions.

Being yourself is more important than living under a facade of goodness. Small things like being blunt (and not rude) saying no ( without disrespect turning down) is very important.

You can't always say Yes, you can't  always play a fairy godmother.
I am not saying be a nasty step mom, I am saying its important to be a little selfish at times.

Most of you might feel I am not using the correct adjectives, but I am using the precise words. Its very important to think of yourself nurture yourself as you can't be a giver all the times.

At times you need to demand the Universe what is rightfully yours, and there is no harm in it.

Both our alter egos should be given freedom so as one doesn't dominate other and you liberate and live a sane and balanced life.

No One predicted Life! It follows a chaotic pattern!

Ego

Problem with Ego is its Invisible,
It creeps in with success,
And reflects in form of arrogance,
If not nipped in the bud,
Can destroy Masters !

Writers Curse

At times millions of complicated words weaved artistically,

Cannot articulate,

And sometimes you need to write a lot ,

To figure out what are you writing

Arrange Marriage Perceptions

Arrange Marriage

In India like any other free liberal Democracy, we tend to build perceptions consciously or subconsciously. They are a baby of our behaviour patterns and unfulfilled desires.

As they say the journey is sweeter than destination...

Relationship is a journey, we all evolve

Perception Indian Women have about Men:-

>For them the difference between Shaadi.com and a Porno site is just cloths.

Blessed with a x ray vision to drill through the fabric, and look beyond it.
So much so, can run the analytical algorithms which throw the correct dimensions of the object under observation with implacable accuracy.

>Obsessed with Love making on the minds  rather than love itself.

>Intoxication leads to instantaneous mortality, even done with desecration or a prescription.

Perception Indian Men have about Women

>Men come in shapes of Salaman Khan and Hrithik Roshan, and are always as romantic as SRK, and when the tender sex weaves these dreams, those rooms obviously don't have weighing scales or mirrors.

>Self obsessed with beauty (again self proclaimed) which is imperishable.

> Driving a Car is like , navigating an intergalactic  space-craft , and cannot be done by the fairer sex without scratches and scars.

 >Food in the neighbor's plate and Man on best friends bed is/are always delicious, and the pie which you have to deal with is always not fulfilling. Applies to men as well as food.

>Never are satisfied, emotionally, financially or physically.

> If i would have waited just a little longer my prince charming would have picked me in his Scarlet Ferrari.

And all i end up with is Red Maruti.

Thank You!

I want to thank you to let me free,

Else I wouldn't have realised the sea of goodness within me,

You sketched me in all gray,

which made me realise the rainbow deep within me,

I am sure if we would be together ,

We would be all thirsty for only red,

Thank you for saving the tsunami,

And making me aware of the catastrophe!

Cry of a Broken Heart

Cry of a Broken Heart

You transformed me into a Monster,

You weaved a trap and with elegance executed espionage,

A meagre mortal, is now a colossal monster,

The way you celebrated my shortcomings,

The way you decorated my inglorious past, 

Past that was buried and dead long ago,

I was inflicted by wounds from the grave,

I am left with no desire and crave,

So I ask Universe, what's the Big plan?

Why I was dethrone from a Czar to a beggar?

The wounds shall not heal anytime soon!

I am sure you wanted your freedom,

And you are now set free,

By setting blaze to my small happy nest.

God, I wish to ask, why are you so biased towards the one who inflicts pain,

Or do  you think Men are born immune to emotions?

I heard and life is unfair,

Be it that way!

I just ask why am I made a prisoner to crimes that never happened.

And you walk out of this with your head held high,

Passing the buck,

Making me the scapegoat,

I have paid a heavy price for being honest, true and good!

And what I get to hear you were very 'nice'!

  

Fearless

Fuel your dreams and not fears!....
Try to live without captivation!...
And You shall be in a happy state of mind...
Irrespective of the outcome!-

Freedom

Life is too short,

Too short to have grudges and pain,

Attachment leads to only disappointment,

Pain becomes inevitable , if we feel captivated,

Sometimes being out of control, lends a sense of balance,

Be a bit crazy!,

Be a bit mad !,

Life is too short to be sad!,

Number of weekends on this Planet are finite,

Live it!

Love it!

Get a purpose,

Biting time, running through motions,

Shall not liberate,

Break free !

Smile a lot!,

The problems which surround you and seem like issues of Life and death,

Shall seem petty few years hence!

Break free !

Break free!

First step is always tough from Illusion to reality!