Sunday, July 25, 2010

I Love You























Sometimes
I feel I am this Stranger,
Standing alone with my umbrella closed,
It’s pouring rain & me I am in deep, deep pain,
I use to get Wet, loved it then,
But now I am in the rain to hide my pain,
As few droplets roll down my cheeks,
 They tend to subside in the continuous stream dripping from my head to toe,
Drenching me, making me shiver,
That day you broke me the painful news,
You looked so confused!
You didn’t knew, Which Way to go,
You asked for my help!
You looked tensed, tears started to roll down your cheek,
I have seen many disturbing pictures but none more disturbing than to see you helpless,
You had to take the biggest decision in life,
Well for me it was destruction of the lovely picture of our’s that I had painted in my life,
I so needed to hold you,
Hug you & tell you.
I Love You, I Love You!
But I had to hold my tears to wipe yours,
 As they are more painful to me more than anything else,
So this selfless friend gave a serious piece of advice,
Knew the consequence,
And Lost His Queen for Life!

Sunday, May 30, 2010

The Midnight Owls




The bar shut its door's
We are high, so high that we hit the ground
mediocrity will astound
and performers debate

what is going to be our fate?
Oops Monday Office RD in & i am already late
Same old questions gonna haunt you mate!
Have you logged in 6 A/c yet?

And if you’re a fan of Mr. Safari,
There is no reason to worry!
Only sufferer will be the beholder
As sun sets
You Pal will be a beer-holder
Pop-corns will fly from up above in your mug!
Hi-tech music without earplugs
We get ready for another day,

With hangover to stay
Pipelines,Log-in's & meetings sound like
Bumble bees buzzing there way
humming, hissing, whispering all the way
if you are a Trainee
I am sure your head by now must be a macaroni,

But if you are a seasoned campaigner
you can prolong the date,
but the race never ends
pressure & targets mount
Shit! all my lustrous blacks have turned grey
now i don't keep a count

Gunning for Scalps,
Milking the clients,
squeezing the bucks,
the race never ends,
aspirations grow
they control my behavior

suddenly the next designation
is my only destination
i live from appraisal to appraisal
oh i so much wanna jump out of this treadmill
Its too fast & if i jump i fear i would be injured
fear dominates me i wanna break free i wanna break free

What do i do suggest me Mr. Safari...?


PS: Inspired by Dave Holloway's work, in fact first few lines i have taken from his " LOST"...
Very few outsiders will understand & correlate with people like RD, Mr. Safari & many things of oyr boring Mundae Office lives!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Your Partners Best friend.& Your Worst Nightmare!...

            
Before I scribble & write stories, let me tell you I am a peace loving, cold blooded, warm hearted beast( this name is a gift from my girlfriend’s best friend).
She is always that itch, which on scratching turns the skin red, staying with her is like sucking air inside the mouth & exposing it to the cavity, you know it will give you a bad ache still you can’t help sucking the dam air in. Now many of you might feel I am being a hypocrite, I start this piece by saying I am cold blooded, but I have used some adjectives  to decorate my 'Girlfriend’s best friend' 's character which might on surface showcase I am short tempered. But I am not targeting a specific person, it’s only a designation given by your girl/boy (These character have been detected in both the sexes)
They are a different breed they always feel as if you are acquiring a controlling stake in their best friend, which they had acquired in a creeping manner, they still have the urge to manipulate mind of their best friend, and showcase her/him  the plethora of options she/he is missing on. You might feel that I am an insecure person, trying to live in shadow of fear, I am not… actually you are never really concerned about actions of your gf/bf’s best friend… you are mad with the poke-dokie it plays with your time & eats into those healthy , romantic & sweet dates.
One thing I have seen the best friend always has series of failed relationships, for which they tend to blame the entire male/female community. Invariably they are single when you are seeing their best friend & when eventually you break up with your girl or a boy sprouts of love, green shoot’s of romance suddenly emerged in there wretched love lives, & they come to you to thank you to say, “ Thanks you taught me the meaning of Love”, & you feel Thank You… but No THANK YOU!..... And on surface what you do is just pass a smile!...

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Haunting Xperience in Paradise called Kashmir


Was really excited to visit heaven on earth, Jannat, Paradise… Kashmir, & as they say real Europe is not what you see out of the glass window of your Euro-rail but it’s the country side with winding roads, journey made on a gearless scooter. So I wanted to see the real Kashmir & not the Cash-Mir we all know.
We all were young wild & free, adventurous & obviously our folks thought our Journey ends in Himachal, but our journey began from there, we were these fearless birds who wanted to explore the paradise on earth, Kashmir irrespective of an obvious fear of being attacked, kidnapped or even  killed by terror groups.
I am an outsider here, we decided to play safe & start up from Shrinagar, timing of our visit could not have been perfect it was evening of 13’th August & there was high degree of security alert & calmness, all we could see was army men & military vehicles, but we had a traumatic experience before this serene feeling, which we somehow survived. On our way to Shrinagar we hired a cab, hilly areas can seriously fire your belly from time to time, we stopped our Van at Dhabba (A local Indian Restaurant), again suggested by the driver hired by us, ‘Sharmaji’, Kashmiri Pandit, tall ,young, good looking smart chap, if groomed properly had the potential to beat the broad daylight out of Gladrags contestants. Oh we had a hearty lunch, there is something about this region, I don’t know if it’s the food served is sweet or hunger is insatiable, but you always tend to eat more than you normally would. After a satisfying lunch & Lassi we drove away, we were all full & drowsy & all wanted a good nap before our next destination, but Nilesh sprung up, “ Oh Shitt I forgot my sack at the Dhabba”, to which Sharmaji replied “ Shaab ussme kuch agar mehnga nahi hoga to rehne dijiye, wapas janna risky hai”   ( If the sack has no valuables, its worthless & risky turning back), to which Nilesh replied “Shitt! Man, I had a LoveU Tshirt gifted by my girl, my camcorder & digi cam in it!, dude I am screwed!, she will kill me!”, after this incident I have hated Priyanka to gift this idot that LoveU T-Shirt. Moreover we really were more concerned about images of our exploits rather than Nilesh’s death, as he was already dead dating that female.
We all convinced Sharmaji to take a U turn, he reluctantly steered vehicle back to ground zero, we reached the place, we searched for the sack, suddenly a small Kashmiri boy came running towards us, these kids are blessed with everything, fair  Russian complexion, sharp features, innocent little blue eyes, a Kashmiri Hindi which is very hard to decipher. The boy had Nilesh’s sack, we were so overwhelmed by the kid’s innocence, honesty, & that million $ smile on his face which lit up hundred lights, after looking at a Rs 10 note, we made his day, we didn’t bother to check our belongings, the honesty of the little boy was good enough, we all went into the Van, Sharmaji was quite, he started the ignition & we were on our way, he was speeding a lot, sweat was cracking  & he was turning pink, and we were in a Kashmiri summer with temperatures of 17degree Celsius, for me it was much cooler than any average Mumbai winter. He pulled over all of a sudden, & screamed “Everybody Out of the Car Now!!!.... “, we were puzzled, confused, scared, we did as he instructed to stay out of harm’s way, I had this sticky feeling, this skinny little bastard actually took us for a ride, now may loot us, as we got out of the Van he screamed again “Everybody Run for your lives!”, I was amused, why this man wants us to run on full stomach, but he seemed to be the boss, so we followed his command with tight lip, I thought what all I could do with that Rs10 bill, which I gave to that chipmunk, it just bought me a headache & almost a near heart attack after few minutes of unexpected cardio, we were at a distance from the Van, I looked at Viral, Nilesh, Amit & Shrikant all looked more confused than I was,  wait a minute how come script change in seconds, how can a potential Villan turn into a our Savoir?
The Army was called upon, we were scared to death, but also felt lucky to be alive, it was a bomb scare!, Pictures, videos & LoveU T-shirt was off our mind, we were so thankful,. It took them, 150 minutes to clear off the site & declare there was no bomb scare, Major Puri, wished Shyam (Sharmaji), shook hands, said “ Keep it up young man !”, we had WTF! feeling written all over our faces. But we thanked heavens and resumed our journey to Shrinagar, on the way Shyam ( Now Sharmaji was Shyam for us, our savior from a bomb attack which was never planned).  
My romance with Kashmir & Shrinagar had just begun; I woke up to reality, the men marching up & down in the uniform, were there for a reason, my mother’s words reverberated in my ears, “ Beta promise me you won’t go to J&K, its dangerous”.
We decided to live in boat house, it was a beautiful & peaceful morning of 14’th August, oh! What a site! The lake, the calmness, this was the real Kashmir seen & talked about. The room service knocked the door, Bed tea (It was Kashmiri tea Salty to taste but was nice & refreshing), honey & toast were served, the boring mundane menu seemed so interesting, the view was mesmerizing.
Silence was broken by  Arif the boy who delivered breakfast & newspaper, he said “ Saahab toh aap India se ho?, jara sambhal ke kal India ka flag matt kharidna ya, parade k liye Bakshi Stadium mein jaana matt, dikkat ho sakti hai”, (  Sir are you From India?,please avoid buying the Indian Flag or going to the Independence day ceremony, you can fall into trouble)
He smiled & left away, I was taken aback, I could not hear anything after his first sentence, “Are you from India?” I asked Nilesh did we accidently crossed the LOC?, Why does a fellow Indian ask me in such fashion, buying the small tricolor on I-Day was a non event, we use to buy & distribute amongst kids, fear gripped we felt things here are also similar to barbed wire, complicated, we hardly moved of the boat house, we enjoyed Kashmir as if nothing had happened, packed our bags on 16’th & caught a train for Delhi. 

PS:
The events are true, & were experienced by y Friend Viral Desai.
The Photograph is taken from Neelesh Mishra's Blog 

Monday, March 29, 2010

The Day We Broke Up

















I remember vividly,
It was the day we broke up,
We were sitting near the lake side,
Oh the mood seemed so romantic,
But that day your eyes were heavy with pain,
It was never same again,
Getting lost in those eyes,
Made my world go upside down,
The Prince lost his crown,
Is there anybody alive to hear my pain in this town?
Why one needs words,
Are looks not good enough?
You never looked at me,
In me,
Within me,
Rather you looked through me,
Beyond me,
Now that Alice is gone,
I am never goanna sing again,
Never pluck those strings,
As Life went out of shaft!
I thank the heavens,
I am recuperated,
Reborn,
And search for the One is On!


Sunday, March 21, 2010

Pleasure in Pain

Every Battle is won or lost before it is fought, the sheer fear of loosing forces men to back out & it's not the failure that we are afraid of, its "possibility of failure & its repercussion on our public image" that defeat's us. One might ask why so ?, it can be mainly attributed to
1)Exploration of unchartered territories & experiences.
2)Living your life on others expectation ( Living a dream which was never yours, but somebody else's aspirations which you have subconsciously picked up).
Trust me even the best fall victim to the 2'nd category.

We hardly know how to cope up with circumstances to which we are alien's. As kids. we were always taught "Success is Good Failure is Bad", and that is where i feel parents go wrong, success & failures in life are states of mind & that's it, you don't fail unless u consider that you have.Never believed in a piece of paper that testify's ones worth, weather it be a grade-sheet, performance report or appraisal document. These papers bind our potential in numbers, whereas it is actually infinite. We tend to relax as we get our set target's,grades or goals.

Success is a state of mind & should lead to happiness, which is always a process.

But failures are equally important

If you ask me a lost battle can be an excellent strategic lesson if learn't, your mistakes always teach you something or the other.

Adversity is always painful & fruitful, it teaches us some lesson's which are never learnt in normal course of life,there lies immense pleasure in pain which is fortunately realized only during good times. In a difficult phase we tend to value what we have, those could be materialistic possession's or sheer abilities that we posses, remember no one can take your abilities away, its you who has o realize they exist. History has testimonial to the fact that Men who have seen set backs are better off taking risk's & making it big as somewhere down the line they know they have nothing lose

These are my favorite lines which i heard from some one  " There is a Pleasure in being Mad, Pleasure which few Big Mad men know"

Monday, March 8, 2010

Recession Baby

I have tried to empathize with those students who have chosen an expensive course like MBA & are having a tough time in USA, who have seen it all shattering of "The Big American Dream," jobs getting Banglored...some actually to relocate to Asia just to pay there Bill's & hefty fees

I am Baby of recession,

Baptized in fire of Depression,

My Big American dream was to make a mark on Wall Street,

Money, Power, Status & Fame,

But all was washed in a bloodbath on the Street,

The American Capitalist model had seen defeat,

It could barely stand on its feet,

Forget dream job,

Now Job is a dream,

At every point either I am overqualified,

Or out of the league,

I decide to sell Pizza at Papa Joe’s,

Baba says you MBA’s work for couple of months,

And never show,

I got no money to spend on a Rat, says Baba’s Dad,

Who runs the show ,

Thousands of dollars I have to repay,

Dorm was such a nice place to stay, 

Millions of people homeless & only cars left to stay,

To feed billions who stay abroad,

I think of getting Banglore’ed or Beijing’ed,

Only way to pay my escalating bills,

I took a flight to Bombay,

Never knew what would be my fate,

I see a strange kind of happiness in pain & struggle,

No insurance, no social security,

Just hand to mouth survival,

Still people with bright smile & Luminescence,

That would scare the broad daylight out of top Executives,

Earning millions,

What is it that the people have?

That makes them smile,

Content, self-fulfillment, satisfaction,

It took me two years to find out,

In quest of the perishable,

We tend to lose imperishable,

And end up losing both!


 Disclaimer:- 

I wish not to harm any community's or Country's sentiments, nor i wish to show any disrespect towards any community or an entity living or dead, this poem is purely imaginary & has no relation with any person living or dead.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

The legend of Frozen lake





This poem is a beautiful story showcasing a father daughter relation, i really don't know how this came to my

mind, but it's very close to my heart.




It was a Chilly Season,


I say a perfect Reason,

Time to put my rollers on,

Doing rounds at the ally seemed like a boring affair,

I say lets be adventurous, lets do some dare,

Oh yeah we goanna hit the frozen lake

The lake has its own beauty

Calm, serene, quite,

Still whisper’s stories,

Stories of love & romance,

Legends that date back to the centuries,

Seemed like a perfect Sunday,

An evening on frozen lake,

Coffee & Hot chocolate at Mc-Larne’s,

Dinner at Dates,

We strolled, skated & threw Ice ball’s,

Presence of snow in February was a bit of luxury,

It was getting dark,

We were not in hurry,

Skidding & Skating around,

We went to the middle of the lake,

I turned back to get my cell phone from the sack,

I hear a thud & a scream in her shrill voice,

I broke into laughter,

She fell again on her bumps,

I turned back to see my baby disappear in front of my eyes,

She was there, there she was!

I choked, I froze, couldn’t scream couldn’t shout,

I heard flapping, & babbling in water,

It was my daughter it was my daughter,

I kept on screaming somebody help!... Somebody!….

No one in the vicinity,

Predictions were of a snowy day!

All locked up in their room’s to watch Manchester United play,

Hey, hey I might lose my daughter due to frost

For my adventure, will I have to pay a big cost?

I was losing time, but not hope,

Can someone help me with a rope?

Chaos panic & pandemonium,

I am screaming shouting for help,

Has everybody in our town gone deaf?

As my dolly was exhausted in the shivering water,

I run with my skate’s, to escort someone,

It took me a while to return back,

All the way I prayed for time to stop,

As I approach I see my darling lying flat on the frozen lake,

Mix feelings run through my brain,

Heart pounding fast,

How did she come up? Is she okey?

Next morning as we enjoy hot chocolate on the warm hospital bed,

She tells me a tale which was hard to gulp,

The legend of the frozen lake was live, kicking & hauntingly true,

There was a hand that pushed my daughter back to life,

The invisible, mystical, hand of shepherd who help’s people stuck in frost,

He was guardian, he was angel, I started believing in legends & fairy tales,

Made be believe in divine!